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my new life as a "degree student " still old face ha ha ha

ASSALAMUALAIKUM dear...

any way sangat lame x menulis kat sini.....sebenarnya selalu tinjau2 blog ni tapii xde mase nk update apa2.....

sangat banyak perkara yang terjadi kat diri aku sepanjang selama aku x update...sedar2 dah TAHUN 2013 kauu jahhhhh im TWENTY ONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! OH MY GOD im getting old these day...ok dah boleyy kahwin hiiiin (malu3) gatal sgt hehheh....duit xde CALON??????? lagi laa jauh xde hehhehhe...

sepanjang tahun 2013 niii byk yang happy sedihh....terjadi....ALHAMDULILLAH now uuoollss can call me MAHASISWI im currently at UNIVERSITI PUTRA MALAYSIA taking my first degree....AS MAJOR IN PETROLEUM CHEMISTRY...i hope i cant finished it in 4 YEARS NOTT MORE (plisss)....just in a sec now....im in final semester 1....its really scared .........

sepanjangg tahun lpass jugakk im doin' something UNEXPECTED ....aku sendiri terkejutt dengan apa yg aku buat hahah...memandangkan SI DIA xkannn baca apa yg aku tulis ni haha.... 
IM CONFESSED !!!!!!!!!!!

ITS REALLLLLYYYYYYYYYYYYY CRAZY as women to confess to someone...what im thinking at that time actually?????really worsed but the great thing is.....bukan aku yang konfess dulu.... dye pernah confess mase habis sekolah dulu ahhahah so im not "PERIGI CARI TIMBA" ....so when i confessed..he seemed happy .... ..but we did not couple..that was great right...kami x jumpe selama 2 tahun...kenal selama 4 tahun.......for that day we had shared happines together along the way..he make me happy...he make me smile...that's why i thind i had fall for u...
for me keputusan x kapel tu bagus..as long as we know that we love each other..that's enough...

but now in 2013...i feel i have disturbed his life so much... im sorry dear...its really hurt....im ok....aku perlahan-perlahan jauhkan diri pada dia...mungkin sbb dye sibuk sgt...maaf sebb selalu kacau hidop kau.....mungkin kita xde jdoh...but ALLAH knows the best for us....bukan senag aku buat keputusan ni.....but im really tired seeing you say "SORRY " to me everytime u did not reply my message....im not message him everyday...aku just mesej dye bila ada perkara yang penting terjadi pada diri aku.....mungkin dye sgt sebokk..aku phm...tapi lame2 sakit sgt.....hari terakhir di mana aku decide x mahu kacau hidup si dia...adalah hari yang sama aku ckp kt kawn aku....yang ''I MISS HIM so much ".....i ve got his message...so long ...say...im sorry again and again....im tired..then im give up...it makes alot of tears..but now ALHAMDULILLAH aku OK....but it comes the memories that u had give me.....the tears seems really not to stop.....

INSYAALLAH aku kuat....aku serah semua urusan hidup soal JODOH aku pada ALLAH......HE KNOWS THE BEST....I KNOW...I have done something bad to my history life......

P/s (love after marriage is the best)